Happy New Year! December was a hectic time for me-straightening loose ends and completing all I intended to accomplish by the end of 2016. Emotions ran the gamut of excitement over finishing the first draft of my book to disappointment when I couldn’t work on my painting because of a cold. I think it must be the flu because I’m dizzy and feeling no energy.
This picture above shows all the painting I was able to do before I became incapacitated. I’m glad I got enough finished to show some progress.
I was reading Amy Pohler’s memoir, Yes Please, and she said something about creatives that resonates with the subject of flow. Pohler states that ambivalence is key to success. This is my take on that statement. When an artist or writer or actor is focused on success, there’s no way they’re going to be in the flow. When we’re expecting an outcome with what we love to do, we’re going to tense up big time and have to struggle with fear.
If you’re thinking about success and you’re worried about failure, you can’t let go enough to be One with what you’re doing. There’s some pull outside of you that keeps you conscious of self, what you expect this thing that you’re doing to bring something outside to you. This could be adulation, money, respect or some other reward.
Ambivalent would be like being on the fence. You’re not choosing one way or another. You may succeed or not. You may have others like what you’re doing or not. You may be paid handsomely for what you’re doing or not.
You are only in the flow when the experience is the only reward, is the only outcome you’re focused on while you’re loving what you’re doing. And, from my own experience, whatever I do only excites when I’m in that space. And the outcome always follows whatever vibrational energy I’ve painted from. When I’m in the flow, the result flows too.